god love's me, he really love's me

as we drove across nebraska i was content listening to cristian breath, watching the electrical activity in the distance and feeling the breeze of the road rush through the open window.

four days prior i could not have imagined being here on the plains in the middle of the night. losing myself in the music of life. but life is funny that way and sometimes you are surprised when you least expect it.

as the hours passed the storms seem to fade beyond the horizon. i was content in the moment, seeing and enjoying the weather.

we approached the nebraska border with cristian mumbling in his sleep. thought he was having a bad dream but he was just changing position. i mussed his hair to annoy him and turned back to the road in time to catch a brilliant flash of light off to the east.

our destination for the evening or should i say morning was a campground just outside sioux city, iowa. the lightening appeared to be in that direction but i was not about to get my hopes up.

crossing into iowa and heading northeast the storm was suddenly in front of us. the road appeared to have split the front in two and lightning battled earth on both sides of the highway.

all i could think was wow. i had seen lightning on national geographic or discover that was this brilliant. but never ever in person. the closer we drew to the campground the brighter the sky became. thunderbolts of the god's dancing to the primordial rhythm of old.

i am sure that my jaw was in my lap.

i was a kid in a candy store.

a six year old seeing disneyland for the first time.

a teen ager experiencing his first kiss.

a man losing himself in the eternal beauty of his eternal love for the first time.

it was all of this and so much more.

and yet words do not do justice for what was still to come.

we pulled into the campground early in the AM. i found a spot with a clear view expecting a continuation of what had guided us here.

god though, god had other ideas.

he was probably sick and tired of hearing me whine for decades about the lack of weather in california. so he looked down at me, chuckled and said you want weather boy....i got your weather right here.

within seconds of parking the sky exploded with all of natures fury.

not just in front of us. not just behind us. everywhere.

the electrical activity surrounded my car. immersing us in a surround sound experience that technology could never duplicate.

i was speechless.

i was raw.

it was as if the hand of god was reaching into my soul and turning my world inside out.

i asked for a storm and god as he often does went above and beyond giving me back my life...........