Afraid to Believe

I am not sure how I found this path
I am not sure how the choice was made
But I have been roaming for so many years
And yet I am still afraid
Afraid of what tomorrow will bring
Afraid of all my yesterdays
Afraid of every shadow in the hall
Afraid to run, too afraid to stay
I want to change the course I’m on
Plan a journey see the world
I just cannot do it alone
I need a the support of a good hearted girl
But I’m afraid of failing again
Afraid of a broken heart
Afraid of removing these walls
Afraid of chance, afraid of another start
I believe in a future filled with hope
I believe the rainbow will follow the rain
But deep down in my soul
There’s a pothole filled with pain
And I’m afraid of feeling love
I’m afraid of the scars it will leave
I’m afraid of being used
I’m afraid, to afraid to believe