Doubt

She once believed it was better
To be alone
In a world full of strangers
Standing against the highest tide
Protecting her heart
From loves danger
She wondered if it was better
To cry alone at night
In a darkened room
Than to believe
In old fairy tales
And fall in love to soon
She thought she would rather face
The night
Alone with a bottle of beer
Than listen to another man
Spin a tale she couldn't bear
Many times she played the fool
Losing her heart
To big blue eyes
Her "friends" all thought
What a sorry state
Their disgust they would not disguise
But she kept on trying
And the tears
Just seemed to fall
Her phone was filled
With cobwebs
No one bothered to call
Thus the final nail
Was driven in
Her heart began to bleed
She found that love was lost
Doubt
Had planted its seed
She just wanted
To lay down and die
But she didn't know how
She contemplated
Suicide
It did not matter anyhow
Her heart was cold and frozen
Her eyes
Were forever dry
She tried so hard
To forget the pain
Caused by all their lies

So to the end
She stands alone
Defiant to the last
Even though
She forgot her lines
She still belonged to the cast

d.s. brueckner
2004